Cycle 34, Feb 2011 - What Will This Month Bring?

So cycle 34 started on January 28th.  I felt like I was facing some huge giants in my life.  I cried for the whole day that aunt flow showed up.  My husband though made me feel better, and I drew from his strength.  He told me that if this month didn't produce results in the form of a baby, then he thought we should see a specialist.  Just the idea that we had a plan beyond this month made me feel better. 

We saw the OB, as we usually do after Aunt Flow (AF) shows.  He does an ultrasound to check for ovarian cyst's monthly because Clomid can increase their growth.  He looked at my temp chart and said that it appeared I geared up to ovulate, but the egg never actually released.

He put me back on 150 mg of Clomid for this month and wants to see me on Valentines Day for a shot of HCG, also called a trigger shot.  This apparently forces the release of eggs.  I'm excited and scared.  Will Valentines Day be our day????

hCG Shot (aka: Trigger Shot)

Top that off with the awesome support I receive at work.  In the past two weeks, I've had two very sweet co-workers offer to be serrogate mothers for me.  How sweet is that???  Hopefully it won't come to that, but how sweet of them to offer.  It's hard at work sometimes because we have so many nurses who are pregnant.  Some of them were trying, while others were suprised to find out they were expecting.  I love them all, they are all so good to me, but it's hard seeing where I would have been had I not miscarried.  It's also hard because they are experiancing what I long to experiance so badly.  I can't be mad at them though, they aren't preventing me from getting everything I've wanted. 

Trusting in God that he knows the right time, and praying that the right time is now.

"Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord!"  Psalm 27:14