Today We Pulled the Trigger...

When I woke up this morning, I was sad and disappointed, and the day hadn't even started yet!  I just had a feeling of dread, of defeat, of helplessness.  I'm usually pretty optimistic about our infertility and whatever process we are undergoing, but not this morning.  I knew that my follicles wouldn't be big enough for trigger and I'd either be told to come back on yet another day this week for a re-check, or that this cycle would be a no-go.  I was super emotional and didn't even feel like going, especially by myself, but there was no way my husband would be able to go with me and I knew I'd have to face this alone. 

Surprisingly, my husband was unusually optimistic about today's appointment.  I wasn't buying into all his positivity though and sulkily, I left the house. 

I went to Dr B's office and signed in, waiting to be called back.  It wasn't long before they called my name and sent me straight to the ultrasound room.  I waited there for a short time before the same ultrasound tech from Monday called me back.  I'm not sure where my favorite tech is, but boy do I miss her!  The only questions this girl answered for me was: "Does my endometrium look thicker than it did on Monday?"

She said "It does look better." 

Then I asked:  "Do my follicles look bigger?" 

She replied: "Some look a little bigger, but most are still really small."

Well, there you have it!  I knew when I woke up this morning that this was going to go badly.  I knew I wouldn't be getting the trigger today and probably not at all this cycle.  I had to fight back tears while I waited in the ultrasound/lab waiting room on the tech to bring her report to me.  Finally, she handed me the report and I slowly walked down the hall to Dr B's waiting area.  A few minutes later, the nurse showed me to an exam room where I fiddled with the tissue box on the counter while I waited for Dr B.

When Dr B came in, he told me that my follicles were looking good and were growing nicely.  Then he said it.  I know the look on my face was one of disbelief when he said it, but he DID say it!  He said:

"I'm going to have them give you the shot."

I couldn't stop the tears from flowing.  He looked at me funny yet with loads of understanding and asked if I were alright.  I said "yeah" through sobs of joy and surprise.  He said that my follicles weren't quite 18 mm, but that his son (you remember that his son is a reproductive endocrinologist at John's Hopkins) told him that he'll trigger follicles at as little as 14 mm.  I couldn't believe it!!!  I was actually getting my trigger shot of hCG today!!!!

I couldn't wait to tell my husband!  I called him as soon as I left and he too was excited and happy.  We're still looking forward to our appointment with the RE at Duke next Wednesday.  We have a lot of questions and it will be nice to have that "second opinion."  In the meantime, I should ovulate in the next 24-48 hours which means that my follicles still have 24-48 hours to further grow and mature.  It also means we have some baby dancing to do (wink wink)!  LOL  Then we'll be settling in for the two week wait.

My Endometrium ThicknessToday:  14.67 mm

Follicle Sizes Today: (all in mm)

Left Ovary:
Follicle 1:  15.6 x 17.0
Follicle 2:  13.3 x 11.7
Follicle 3:  7.9 x 4.9
Follicle 4:  9.1 x 7.8

Right Ovary:
Follicle 1:  5.5 x 5.3
Follicle 2:  5.3 x 9.6
Follicle 3:  4.9 x 8.2
Follicle 4:  5.8 x 4.5

First of all, I need to thank God for preparing my follicles for the appointment today.  I'm also asking that we are successful with this cycle and that we not only get a positive pregnancy test in a few weeks, but a very sticky baby to go along with it.