A Birthday Wish..........

I was expecting my birthday to be a good one.  I was going to sleep in, have fun with my daughter since she's now out of school for the summer, and then join family for dinner.  When I woke up at 3 AM to pee... my plans quickly changed.  ****TMI ALERT****  When I wiped, I saw a pink tinge on the paper.


It seemed like a pink tinge in some cervical mucus.  Since I started bleeding and spotting before my previous miscarriages, I was immediately overcome with grief.  My husband was trying to be positive and reminding me that some pink doesn't mean I'll miscarry.  I must say though... I wasn't buying it.  I tossed and turned awaiting morning so I could call the RE.  I decided I was tired of waiting and at 7 AM I called and left a recorded message for the nurse.  Just after 8 AM, the nurse called me back.  She reminded me that my numbers last week looked great and that pink tinge is rather normal during early pregnancy.  I then felt it necessary to remind her that I just miscarried twice and both times started with pink.  I also told her of my fears that we are headed into a long holiday weekend and if something happened, all offices would be closed.  She reassured me that if something happened, they have an RE on call who will come in and see me and made sure I had the number for that pager.  She offered to do a repeat quantitative level, and I accepted.

I drove to Durham with my husband and couldn't keep the nerves down.  The medical tech who took care of drawing my blood really helped me to relax and feel more comfortable.  I must say, the office staff here is absolutely wonderful.  Of course we have to wait a few hours for results, but on my way back home, I did feel a little better about it.  My only birthday wish is that everything be alright and by January to deliver a happy, healthy little baby.  My husband decided he was going to wait at home with me until the RE's office called with my results.

Just after 1 PM, the phone rang.  I attacked the phone like a snake attacking it's prey.  I just couldn't answer it quick enough.  I held my breath while one of the other RE's in the office explained to me that my beta hCG was very good for this stage.  It's 6,024!  Oh my!  We were hoping and praying it would be around 4,000, which is what we figured it should be after doubling every 48-72 hours since last Friday.  This new number made me breath deep and feel like this pink just might be part of the unexplained crap that sometimes happens.  This RE talked to me about what they call unexplainable bleeding/spotting during pregnancy and told me that they weren't worried about the pink I had going on.  She said that if I start having menstrual like bleeding, to call them.  They also changed my sonogram from June 13th to June 8th.  I will be 6 wks and 5 days then and they think they should still be able to see a heartbeat at that time based on my current numbers.

My birthday wish.... Everything goes smoothly and baby is healthy!